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Nataly🩷

This is my full testimony. Please note there are many trigger warnings including narcissistic abuse, physical/sexual abuse, trauma, suicide attempts, and witchcraft.All Glory to God.Matthew 6:14-15
"For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."This is my journey of forgiveness.Witchcraft was first introduced in my life through my step-father. My mother married him when I was about 5-6 years old. Please note my memory is foggy with exact dates & times. Growing up with him he spoke about his background in practicing witchcraft and that many times it led to him being physically attacked by demonic spirits. They would push, punch, and choke him- in his own words.God later revealed to me that my step-father is a very wicked and demonically oppressed man. He is the root cause of these demonic attacks I would go on to have throughout my life. He has practiced witchcraft on my mother and I since he came into our lives. His goal was to get me to unalive myself by the spirit of depression. God showed me that my step-father bounded my mother to him so that she would never leave him. That turned her into his most loyal puppet. Later, she would become just like him. Thank you to the Lord, she eventually created distance from him and found herself again. I suspect he also did something like that to me as well bc I felt bounded to both of them and it took me YEARS to create distance from them.Surprise, my biological dad was also riddled with darkness. He was involved in dark magic according to my mother and I later found out from his own mouth that he is a freemason. That alone is a generational curse that had to be broken. However I didn't realize at the time that this would leave the door wide open for the ocult and new age practices to enter my life.My whole life I always felt a pull towards God but always a constant tug away from Him as well. Little did I know it was because the adults that surrounded me all had a dabble in the dark arts. Even my mother. She was not perfect as she has admitted to playing with magic herself. She said she had no choice but to do "light" magic of protection to get away from my biological father who was threatning & abusive to her. However when you know anything about witchcraft you know there is no such things as "light" or "dark" magic, it is all the same and comes from the same source. Although I believe she had innocent intentions, if it's not coming from the Lord then it's from the enemy.As you can see, I did not have many good-spirited people around me and in fact, I would say they had ill intentions for me and my life.I was grateful to come to know Jesus after leaving the family religion of 'Jehovah's Witnesses'. I found out that it was a cult and glory to God I was first saved at age 16. I was led to Christianity by my first boyfriend who ironically will become the reason why I eventually left the church and turned away from God. We will call this boyfriend “Jeremy” for the sake of privacy. With everything being so chaotic growing up(Step-father relapsed on hard drugs) I really tried to stay on course with my connection to God. The church was like my second home. It was all I had.All the information below is relevant I promise.Jeremy and I broke up at around the time I turned 18. I continued to go to the same church and became close to my pastor. One day, a good friend of mine learned about a Christian school in Pasadena, CA. She said the fee was just 2,000 for the year. We could go live in dorms, and learn more about Christ. I was so down to go I just had to come up with the money(which the Lord of course provided for). I later found out this friend told Jeremy(ex boyfriend) about it, and you guessed it, he wanted to go too.You might be asking why this is relevant to my story? Well, It’s because when we got to the school he decided to act like he just NEVER KNEW ME. It was a full blown act. He genuinely treated me as he had never met me before. Mind you, we dated for 2-3 years so I was stunned. I even lived with him and his mother at some point. There was one time where he even said “nice to meet you” to me in a group setting. How could someone that claims to love the Lord treat me like this?Fast forward to about a year later, we all went back to our home church. Not long after, I hear that he is spreading lies about me saying I was “so obsessed with him”. Again, I was shocked because we would never say one word to eachother. I finally got the courage to confront him and said “ I know what you’re saying about me & it’s not true. Keep my name out of your mouth.” Of course he denied it. After that I couldn’t stand to be around him and all the others that would gossip(you could tell who's friends they were) so I left the church and never went back.trigger warning below sexual assaultIf you’re still here, thank you for reading my story🩷When I went back home, I was starting to turn away from God and got into drinking and smoking weed. Despite this, I still had God in my heart, and would still attend other churches. This leads into the last and final straw for me. One day after drinking with friends, I was very intoxicated. There was a guy driving everyone home, and I was the last one to be dropped off. He insisted on making sure I was okay and going inside with me. Yes he assaulted me. I was so intoxicated I barely knew where I was.The next morning I got up, and saw evidence of what had happened(I still had maintained my purity). I panicked and immediately went to my mom and told her what happened that night. She heard me tell her I was violated and she looked me straight in the eyes and said “EW”.I started crying even more and felt like I had no one to talk to about it except my pastor from the church I had left. I let her know what happened out of desperation of not knowing what to do. Maybe she could offer some prayer or encouragement. A few moments later, I got a text from Jeremy that said “did you have sex?” I was infuriated because in that moment I realized my pastor that I trusted, went straight to my ex boyfriend and told him what had happened to me. It was like my life was just some kind of entertainment for them. That was the biggest invasion of privacy I had ever experienced to this day. No, this pastor never even responded to me.I became almost numb in that moment and I remember feeling a shift happening within me. I became cold, and stone-like. That was the last straw. I was heartbroken when I realized I had absolutely no one in this life that cared for me. I prayed to God for the last time, and told him I was done. I don’t believe in him anymore, and I am walking away.I want to quickly state I don’t blame or hold any unforgiveness in my heart for Jeremy as I believe he came into my life for the purpose of leading me to Christ. He fulfilled that purpose and for that I will forever be thankful for.While then not having God in my life, I fell deeper into addiction with alcohol. I fell into many abusive relationships, one of them being physically abusive. I was lost, and around this time is when I attempted for the first time in my life to unalive myself. This led me into going to a MH. Not one person cared or checked in on me(accept my mother who drove me there.) This is what made me realize later that this is what my step-father wanted. Something told me back then (God’s voice) that I would be giving them what they wanted, and letting them win if I took my life. After knowing this, I never attempted on my life again.This is true. He wanted this to happen. For me to be Godless, and soulless that I get to the point of wanting to end my life. His mission was almost completed. He had driven such a wedge between my mother and I, caused so much division, and I turned away from God. He almost got what he wanted. Interestingly enough, I just found out he took out a life insurance policy under my name when I was younger. Not even my mother has one on me. Ask yourself, why would a STEP father do that?? (He could legally do so because he adopted me through the court).This makes me want to cry just writing it. Obviously I never went through with it, by the grace of God I am still here. It’s truly only by His love that I am typing up my testimony right now.Fast forward a few years and God IS SO GOOD, He still led me to the love of my life, my now husband. Ever since I was a little girl I just always knew that when I met my husband, I would instantly be able to recognize him when I met him. I remember having a dream of what he would look like as well. When I met him, my soul recognized his and I just knew he would be the one.However, the enemy was always watching and when I met my husband, I fell into the Twin Flame brainwashing doctrine. This was the start of my new age practices. I became obsessed about the label and that caused a whole slew of problems in our relationship. This is also when I picked up tarot cards and dove deep into the occult. The spirit of divination and witchcraft was always around waiting for the opportunity to grab hold of me.I read tarot cards from 2019-2025 (on & off) charging for my readings. In 2025 was the last time I tried to pick up a deck. God never allowed it again. He always stepped in and blocked me from going further. He showed me if I were to continue on this path I would be walking the same path as my step-father and my mother. A path of emptiness, darkness, and wickedness. Most importantly, a life without His presence.In early 2024 I prayed my first prayer to the Lord that I had in YEARS, honestly since I had walked away from him. I had realized my relationship felt stagnant and it made me sad because I knew he was meant for me. I prayed to God and asked for guidance and to show me what we were supposed to do bawling my eyes out to Him like a little girl needing her father. 2 months later, we were married, changing career paths, and moving states. Today(2026) my husband, mother, and little brother are now all saved! Praise the Lord!! Today I am now devoted to Christ again. I started to let his voice be heard again. I realized no matter what I decided to do, walk away from him, leave the church, practice divination, he never abandoned me. He never left my side always making sure I was protected while everyone else in my life had always left. God is so good. His love trumps any love I have EVER felt in my life.I am still here today because of the sheer strength I received from the Lord.Ephesians 6:12
“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”Thank you for reading my story. This was tough to rehash but all glory to God! I truly hope my story is able to steer hearts to Him.As a part of my ministry I would love to share your story on your behalf. If you have an experience of witchcraft, spiritual oppression, how you found the Lord or how you were reunited with Him, or just any story that is relevant you would like me to talk about, share your story to: [email protected] 🫶Prayer:Thank you Lord for the incredible testimony you lead me through that made me stronger today. Thank you for freeing us of spiritual oppression. We are covered by the blood of Jesus Christ.In Jesus name we pray,Amen